seriously- what am I doing with my life?

That post below- it's pathetic- xfactor/facebook- what's going on? how did I become so disengaged with real life? I did actually recently disable my Facebook profile, just cos it's such an unrimeting time theif and nostalgia fest, and I don't see how any good can come of it.

Just spent two days off sick in bed (like you do?-dont ask), I ventured out today to get some last minute christmas shopping and realised that the town I live in is an ACTUAL shit hole. It has no inspiring features at all. I mean, yea it can be kind of funny to live in a total dump and see the flip side of everything, but also when you step out your door, I think you have to be somewhere that engages you and gives you a sense of "wow" every so often. To me the best cities are those that have great highlights and deep low lights.

This partly stems from having started to read Stuart Murdoch(of belle and sebastian fame)'s Diaries "the celestial cafe" they're ok, pretty bog standard, this happened then this happened the I had this hipster musing about something or other. Well actually I kind of love the hipster musings and they're generally about Glasgow, which is a city that has incredible poverty and scumminess cheek by jowl next to amazing city scapes and architecture and people that have and incredible wit.

Maybe I'm just being moany because I'm sick and tired of having cold wet feet every time I step out of the door because of this god-awful winter we're having. Its not a new realisation to me that I live in a horrible soul-less place that I don't want to remain in any longer than I have to (for professional reasons am stuck here for the next few years) but it's just that sometimes I deal with it better than others. Sigh.